On reflection I was wrong - you probably can't figure out what I'm thankful for. Why should you know that?
A few thoughts...
I'm thankful things aren't worse.
I'm thankful I'm in a better position than most people to deal with this. I've got some assets and some resources and - with all its problems - a professional caregiving establishment that mostly gets the job done. I'm not wiped out, not yet, and I don't have to care for him all on my own under my own roof. I know many of you have to do that and I don't know how you manage it.
I'm thankful he's been in mostly good spirits. That's nothing to take for granted. I don't know if it'll continue but so far, so good.
I'm thankful that I've been able to serve as his memory for the past few years. Next year that'll matter less, but I hope it's given him some comfort.
I'm thankful that I've had this experience of him to put against other experiences (good and bad). It fills out the picture. I hope the experience of being cared for - when he was aware of it - helped him balance out other things that happened to him in other times.
I'm thankful that I've stumbled into a practice and a viewpoint that helps me cope. When your life turns into a koan, it helps to have some things to do.
I'm thankful that I'm called on to do something other than help make public companies more profitable. That's a fine thing to do and I'll probably do it again but there are other things in life and this is one of them.
I'm thankful for all of you who read and comment, or just read. It's nice to know I'm not alone (yes, I know, I am, but I'm also not). I hope you feel the same way.
Thanks. Hang in. More soon.